I’ve heard a song a few times lately on UCB Radio, called ‘Blessings’ by Laura Story. I love it! I looked it up on YouTube, and well, it’s more than just a nice song. The tune is lovely but the lyrics speak volumes. I have never heard anything like it! Each time I listen to it or watch it online, it is challenging – and changing – my perceptions of what a blessing from God means. I pray for some of these things in the song – blessings, peace, family, health, protection, strength and so on. Yet sometimes these prayers for ‘good’ things seemingly go unanswered (which I know isn’t true – God does answer, it’s just that we don’t always like the answer!).
We may ask ourselves, “How can God let this happen?” or “I’m not asking for much, why can’t God give me this one thing?”. Whilst I’ve never really asked God, “Why us?” in relation to Asa having Down’s syndrome, I do often wish he didn’t have it, for his sake and ours. I also wish my little boy wasn’t still in hospital. I pray for God to bring my son home; I miss him – Jon does too obviously – and we want him home. Yet there Asa still lies – away from us, surrounded by beeping machines, the sharp smell of disinfectant, and nurses caring for him in the blue and green uniforms. “That should be me caring for him,” I inwardly, silently cry. Sometimes not so silently if I am honest.
We look on these disappointments in life as ‘bad’ things. Painful. Confusing. Saddening. This song challenges what we think of as blessings. What if blessings come through unexpected things? What if blessings come from painful situations we need to go through? God knows what is best for us and He is in control. I don’t know why Asa is still in hospital or indeed why he had to go into the Neonatal Unit to start with; nor do I know why Asa has Down’s Syndrome, or why anyone is born with a disability. I don’t have all the answers. (I know it’s because we live in a sinful, imperfect world – that’s the short answer!). I know that God has a purpose for him, just as much as He does for each of us. I know that Asa, like Emelia, will be a blessing to us. That he will teach us many things. That our life is going to be a little different than expected, a more ‘scenic’ route perhaps. But that is ok. We will be ok! We ARE and will be, blessed, in ways we can’t yet even imagine… We are just clinging to God right now and trusting Him. It’s all we can do.
To watch the video, click this link – lyrics are below:
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near?
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not our home
What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy?
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise.
Blessings – watch the story behind the song: